i'm resigning from being a myspace musician. everything i do now is for myself. i'm making all my songs downloadable on my myspace and i will no longer record new songs. this chapter of my life is indefinitely closed. i will be performing at the shows i agreed to do now but will no longer take any offers.
i'm sorry.
over 300 people on my buddylist. 300 "buddies." i think it's pathetic how i can't single one person out of that buddylist and have a meaningful conversation with them to release some stress and vent. you know, real friends. i am really depressed, but this moto perpetuo has to stop somewhere.
Monday, December 29, 2008
Columbia
What one doesn't know will eventually be found out.
It's came to my attention that in some degree, everyone fronts.
It's came to my attention that in some degree, everyone fronts.
Friday, December 26, 2008
horizontal dropouts are a way of life
no joke.
well i guess this will be my first real entry in a while. my little cousins and my sister are in my room, so i'm bumping my current blogspot song on my stereo headphones my girlfriend got me :]
anyway, ...
ah, it's just real hard to write entries anymore. lol
but i can honestly say that fs is officially bornnnnn
well i guess this will be my first real entry in a while. my little cousins and my sister are in my room, so i'm bumping my current blogspot song on my stereo headphones my girlfriend got me :]
anyway, ...
ah, it's just real hard to write entries anymore. lol
but i can honestly say that fs is officially bornnnnn
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Sunday, December 21, 2008
revised christmas
well for one thing, i'm still going to that lakers game even though they've been suckin.
7-keto is out of the wishlist. however, a baby bottle blue usb condenser mic is added. i also want to get an iMac now and logic. i'm not a cheap beggar.
napp's been in my life lately. wtf. no use for blogging anymore.
7-keto is out of the wishlist. however, a baby bottle blue usb condenser mic is added. i also want to get an iMac now and logic. i'm not a cheap beggar.
napp's been in my life lately. wtf. no use for blogging anymore.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
since everyone loves quotes
"I myself am made entirely of flaws, stitched together with good intentions." - Augusten Burroughs
I reflect upon this quotation with contradiction emotions. Bittersweet.
It's not beginning to feel like christmas for me. I don't know why. I'm actually rather unhappy. But i'll stop complaining.
I reflect upon this quotation with contradiction emotions. Bittersweet.
It's not beginning to feel like christmas for me. I don't know why. I'm actually rather unhappy. But i'll stop complaining.
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Saturday, December 13, 2008
everybody is steppin up
their f*cking game, and i'm getting hella merked, nah mean? i don't need pro tools or reason. all i want is my LOGIC.
anyway, i realized that i should be writing more since i have so much time on my hands. I tend to lose weight after eating a lot in one sitting if for the past previous days i haven't eaten shit. it's weird how that works.
anyway, i realized that i should be writing more since i have so much time on my hands. I tend to lose weight after eating a lot in one sitting if for the past previous days i haven't eaten shit. it's weird how that works.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
i laughed out loud
which each victory pacquiao brings to his homeland, he records a new song.
they consecutively get better.
they consecutively get better.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
NEWS FLASH
Hard work and, brace yourself, STUDYING actually gets you the grades you want.
"Someone's gonna have a merry christmas this year."
sidenote:
I realized that the song i up on this was made before the terms, "swag," and, "steez" were popularized.
"Someone's gonna have a merry christmas this year."
sidenote:
I realized that the song i up on this was made before the terms, "swag," and, "steez" were popularized.
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Not too Shabby.
So today marks the beginning and an ending to my speech and debate career. Nominated to do an exemplary or cultural artifact speech after week one of school, I ignored the invite to be part of the CSULA forensics (forensics being the the speech and debate branch, not the csi kind) because I wasn't free on friday and saturday of the three day tournament that I had just competed in. Being part of a competitive group isn't new to me; I actually thrive in competition. I am hardly motivated to do anything if what I am about to do has nothing to do with some kind of goal, prize, reward, etc. With that being said, I did, and kinda reluctantly, joined for the last day of the tournament to represent CSULA as a novice persuasive speech orator, and I can honestly say that I liked today and what happened.
To reiterate, I like being in competitive groups because unlike being in a traditional clique or social group, one is provoked to reach a higher echelon of self-actualization, and in my case today, the higher echelon of self-actualization for me was through speech and debate (and as you, the reader, can tell through the way I'm writing this entry, I'm still in competition mode). Warming up with the team reminded me a lot of my high school years warming up with the drumline in a giant arc, but today, we were in a bolus, cramped in a tiny classroom. However, a few moments into warm-ups, this bolus conglomerated into an organized unit, united as one, screaming at the top of our lungs, "WE ARE LA. THIS IS MY PLACE. THIS IS MY TIME. YOU WILL REMEMBER ME." The recollection of this right now just gave me goosebumps.
The tournament was organized in four rounds. Preliminary eliminations, then quarterfinals, then semi-finals, and finally...finals. I felt pretty, in the words of hardcore forensics enthusiasts, "iced," for my first round, which I later found out during our 2nd postings got me 1st place in my round with a score of 93.2something. Off to quarterfinals I go..
A seemingly long 45 minute break ensued in which I joined with fellow team mates Yurie and Melanie to get some scones at the starbucks CSULB had in their library. Feeling overly confident, I let my egotism get to me, and I didn't do too hot at my 2nd round. I noticed that the competition got a lot better than the previous round. I guess they really weeded out the truly novice of the novice division, lol.
After my quarter-finals round has ended, this is when things got a little bit rushed, but this worked to my advantage. With the speech still fresh in my head, and discovering that despite my bad performance during 2nd round, I still managed to get into finals with my 3rd place finish scoring at 89.something. There was only two minutes to get to next the lecture hall all the way on the other side of campus. I guess the adrenaline really helped, since I butchered my last round.
It was a 2 hour wait until the finals posting went up. I didn't make it. I placed 13th overall. I placed 2nd in my quarterfinals by a ridiculously small margin of .0something. I'm not too disappointed though, I did very well my first shot in an atmosphere that is foreign yet eerily familiar to me. Again, I felt the camaraderie of teamwork, but these feelings of nostalgic value come and go too often, and I doubt that I'll be doing another gig like this in the near future.
To my teammates:
We are LA. This was our place. This was our time. We ARE remembered. We earned the bronze. At least we beat UCLA, yeah?
Notes:
[+] just because you're filipino, do not think you're cool with me
- do not be mad because i did better than you and this is my first time and you've been doing this your whole time at a community college
- don't compare your parliamentary speech with mine because we're in two different fields of focus
- and do not give me "constructib creetisism" right after you insult me by saying my speech was too "showy" and "attention whore-esque." there's a reason why the audience stayed awake during my speech and you heard snores
- work on your accent, fob ass bitch
To reiterate, I like being in competitive groups because unlike being in a traditional clique or social group, one is provoked to reach a higher echelon of self-actualization, and in my case today, the higher echelon of self-actualization for me was through speech and debate (and as you, the reader, can tell through the way I'm writing this entry, I'm still in competition mode). Warming up with the team reminded me a lot of my high school years warming up with the drumline in a giant arc, but today, we were in a bolus, cramped in a tiny classroom. However, a few moments into warm-ups, this bolus conglomerated into an organized unit, united as one, screaming at the top of our lungs, "WE ARE LA. THIS IS MY PLACE. THIS IS MY TIME. YOU WILL REMEMBER ME." The recollection of this right now just gave me goosebumps.
The tournament was organized in four rounds. Preliminary eliminations, then quarterfinals, then semi-finals, and finally...finals. I felt pretty, in the words of hardcore forensics enthusiasts, "iced," for my first round, which I later found out during our 2nd postings got me 1st place in my round with a score of 93.2something. Off to quarterfinals I go..
A seemingly long 45 minute break ensued in which I joined with fellow team mates Yurie and Melanie to get some scones at the starbucks CSULB had in their library. Feeling overly confident, I let my egotism get to me, and I didn't do too hot at my 2nd round. I noticed that the competition got a lot better than the previous round. I guess they really weeded out the truly novice of the novice division, lol.
After my quarter-finals round has ended, this is when things got a little bit rushed, but this worked to my advantage. With the speech still fresh in my head, and discovering that despite my bad performance during 2nd round, I still managed to get into finals with my 3rd place finish scoring at 89.something. There was only two minutes to get to next the lecture hall all the way on the other side of campus. I guess the adrenaline really helped, since I butchered my last round.
It was a 2 hour wait until the finals posting went up. I didn't make it. I placed 13th overall. I placed 2nd in my quarterfinals by a ridiculously small margin of .0something. I'm not too disappointed though, I did very well my first shot in an atmosphere that is foreign yet eerily familiar to me. Again, I felt the camaraderie of teamwork, but these feelings of nostalgic value come and go too often, and I doubt that I'll be doing another gig like this in the near future.
To my teammates:
We are LA. This was our place. This was our time. We ARE remembered. We earned the bronze. At least we beat UCLA, yeah?
Notes:
[+] just because you're filipino, do not think you're cool with me
- do not be mad because i did better than you and this is my first time and you've been doing this your whole time at a community college
- don't compare your parliamentary speech with mine because we're in two different fields of focus
- and do not give me "constructib creetisism" right after you insult me by saying my speech was too "showy" and "attention whore-esque." there's a reason why the audience stayed awake during my speech and you heard snores
- work on your accent, fob ass bitch
Punches and Punchlines
So, how much are they paying you?
Paying me for what?
For babysitting that beer.
I was actually very comforted to know that despite what changes you go through in yourself, Riverside will always remain Riverside. Couldn't help but feel that same warmth. I also enjoyed looking at the familiar Riverside night sky, a sight rare in smog congested downtown LA. There's things to love about both places, but Riverside definitely feels like home.
Downing soymilk during beer pong was the hallmark of the night. That and watching that white girl grind on that awkward dumb dick made this party worth the 30 miles.
Today reminded me on why I loved playing shows. The people you meet. Because of its low attendance, today just felt like a rotated jam session, where everyone got a fair share on sharing their musical talents. I loved every second of it.
Congratulations Pacquiao, too.
Speech and Debate representing CSULA tomorrow. Fuck me.
you like, i like it.
Paying me for what?
For babysitting that beer.
I was actually very comforted to know that despite what changes you go through in yourself, Riverside will always remain Riverside. Couldn't help but feel that same warmth. I also enjoyed looking at the familiar Riverside night sky, a sight rare in smog congested downtown LA. There's things to love about both places, but Riverside definitely feels like home.
Downing soymilk during beer pong was the hallmark of the night. That and watching that white girl grind on that awkward dumb dick made this party worth the 30 miles.
Today reminded me on why I loved playing shows. The people you meet. Because of its low attendance, today just felt like a rotated jam session, where everyone got a fair share on sharing their musical talents. I loved every second of it.
Congratulations Pacquiao, too.
Speech and Debate representing CSULA tomorrow. Fuck me.
you like, i like it.
Friday, December 5, 2008
thoughts i woke up to
WIth so many birthdays and outings last year, how did i find money in pocket or bank account each time we went out? This is also considering that tuition is 20x more expensive at the r.
Ephedrine and caffeine tablets are a must this winter. I can't roll on yohimbe and green tea extract alone.
Wow, next quarter's classes are beast. Bio200b, Phil250, Chem151. No cookie cutter bullshit last or next quarter. God.
MSMC, CSULB, SFSU, SJSU, SDSU, UCI, and final resort, American Career College (lol)
Southern Comfort, Green Apple Smirnoff, Jagermeister, Bacardi Razz, Absolut, Grey Goose, in that order.
Aquino's falsetto rocks any one else i know of.
The show's not in gahr, it's at russ middle school.
Ephedrine and caffeine tablets are a must this winter. I can't roll on yohimbe and green tea extract alone.
Wow, next quarter's classes are beast. Bio200b, Phil250, Chem151. No cookie cutter bullshit last or next quarter. God.
MSMC, CSULB, SFSU, SJSU, SDSU, UCI, and final resort, American Career College (lol)
Southern Comfort, Green Apple Smirnoff, Jagermeister, Bacardi Razz, Absolut, Grey Goose, in that order.
Aquino's falsetto rocks any one else i know of.
The show's not in gahr, it's at russ middle school.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
New Jam.
"big shit poppin" by T.I., or, in this particular song, T.I.P., gets you hyped for anything. period.
I put this on blast to the gym. Put it on repeat on the gym...and didn't realize until 2 hours later that I was actually tired. Hello, 1,100 calorie deficit. I ate pizza to compensate.
We meet everybody for a reason.
I put this on blast to the gym. Put it on repeat on the gym...and didn't realize until 2 hours later that I was actually tired. Hello, 1,100 calorie deficit. I ate pizza to compensate.
We meet everybody for a reason.
nipple circumference
so instead of studying. we're comparing.
you be the judge of what the hell this whole entry means
-________-"
you be the judge of what the hell this whole entry means
-________-"
Greetings, December.
I'd first like to note that it is a troublesome journey from CSULA to K-town if you are following a girl by the name of Regina Smalls. It is just impossible.
However, once getting to Manna Korean BBQ, all was demolished. I guess it was part of our finals celebration, even if we still have one final to go. I aced both Comm150 and Psych150 finals with ease. I guess I was really distracted when I was at the dorms in rside. Hell, i'd still live there if I had a chance though.
Oh, another thing on my xmas wishlist: money for my broken inverter cable on my macbook.
ah, this entry lacks continuity. well, i guess it reflects the month, as hectic and unorganized as it is.
However, once getting to Manna Korean BBQ, all was demolished. I guess it was part of our finals celebration, even if we still have one final to go. I aced both Comm150 and Psych150 finals with ease. I guess I was really distracted when I was at the dorms in rside. Hell, i'd still live there if I had a chance though.
Oh, another thing on my xmas wishlist: money for my broken inverter cable on my macbook.
ah, this entry lacks continuity. well, i guess it reflects the month, as hectic and unorganized as it is.
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