social life remodeling in progress

we were learning about the plasticity of the brain in developmental psychology today. the entire concept loosely means that if ever a hemisphere of a brain is severely damaged and unable to repair itself, the functions, motor and cognitive, that the damaged hemisphere was previously responsible for will matriculate to the other side of the brain, and that hemisphere will control all functions, along with the functions it was primarily responsible for.

in various ways, social life is a bit like that. if friends become distant, you will find ways to recuperate. this is done either by vaguely keeping in touch or catching up by reading posts on things like this. i find it odd how i always seem to feel balanced socially when, in recollective reality, my group of friends fluctuate as much as the bipolar weather has been.

i always find the end of a depressive period in my life to be some sort of renewed sense of balance. i am usually reluctant at first, but i come to terms with everyone else's dispositions as opposed to mine. i then realize things i've already established a long while ago, and those monumental first lines of that one song made by those three androgynous boys start repeating in my head, and i am again at a state of social callousness. mmm.....!

it usually works that way, and thug life, but i can't help but feel that if all of my assumptions about pseudointimacy of friendships are true, then we really do live in such a sad and demeaning world. i can't help but empathize for those people who are so reliant on other people to bring balance in their lives. i guess that's most people. and i guess it's just me who believes otherwise, but like i said, thug life.

whatever that had to be said was said in the allotted time we were predestined to be friends, then you will only exist to me as a skewed memory, biased with joy, laughter, and all those the times we felt on top of the world.